Confidence, the elusive confidence. The older I get the more I feel how little I know and how little I understand. I keep on thinking that soon, next month, next year I will be slimmer, taller (maybe not but would be nice), less anxious, wiser, with a cooler job. I always think that confidence will be something I will gain in the future. Tomorrow will be the day I will really like myself. I never look back at achievements or "pat myself on the back", not in a smug oh I am so good way, but in a "stop being so hard on yourself every second way".
I think HK adds a little to my anxiety I always feel like I can be doing more, better, bigger, faster. So I am trying to learn to like just NOW. To stop always running ahead, learning to slow down. Confidence is about liking yourself right this second, and that's what I try to remind myself all the time! Some days are better than others, but I will get there one day :)
The outfit: with Polka dots everywhere this season from Marc Jacobs to Stella McCartney, I thought it was time to take out my old ZARA skirt and mix it up. The look I had in mind was Gossip Girl mixed with utilitarian/safari chic: Blair Waldorf meets Baroness von Blixen. Skirt Zara, shirt Massimo Dutti, clutch very used and abused Mulberry, bracelet lazy DIY - take a ZARA belt and place it around your wrist (easy and quick), hat PANAMA, snakeskin shoes Uterque (beautiful but give you vicious blisters).
Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to all my Chinese readers! Hope you are having a big feast with your family and lighting some pretty lanterns. Let me know if you need a good personal trainer after all these mooncakes! (If I eat one more mooncake I will give birth to an egg yolk).